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Thank you for walking alongside us, and for deeply crying out to God on our behalf.

Tonight Josh and I held eachother with shaking arms, unable to breathe in our pain, with hot tears and groanings, deeper than we ever have. God is walking closely with us, teaching us, holding us. Thank you for being part of that.

I can still feel little Evelyn Rose, she is still alive and moving- a continued miracle.

As I sat down to pass on a little of this to some of you, here in the wee hours of the morning... in my husband's big sweatshirt, still wiping tears and snot on his sleeves (hope he doesn't mind... I'll just wash this sweatshirt before I give it back to him :) ), I had a photo file open on my desktop. I saw sweet little faces. Sweet, perfect little faces. What a joy and a privilege to raise two wild, wonderful boys. They are turning into such buddies, learning to appreciate eachother and play together instead of fighting, pushing, crying. They are innocent, energetic, curious, noisy, busy, constant, and WONDERFUL. I love this photo, their two little faces close together, and their two little bodies holding tight to eachother. I love how you can see them squeezing eachother.

Pray for them in all this. They don't really know what's going on yet- we have decided that they are too young and their hearts are too tender to carry the current unknowns. We will tell them when God carries out whatever He has decided: either that God decided to keep little Evelyn, or that He gave us the gift of her life. Pray that they would feel peace, even as Daddy and Momma have times of grief. Pray that they would never feel like they are not enough for us, or that we love Evelyn more than them. Pray that someday their little sister would enrich them as men of God.

They are such sweet little boys. They love babies (...and they love girls... :) ), and I long for the chance for them to love-on another baby in our family.

All you who are praying so fervently, and with such boldness, are such an encouragement. Thank you!!

And thank you, God, for all my precious children.

Comments

  1. MPHApril 7, 2011 at 3:57 AM

    Lily and Joel ask about Evelyn often and we are praying for all of you every day. The Lord is teaching us all to trust Him more because of her life. Thank you for sharing your heart.

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  2. anitaApril 7, 2011 at 7:24 AM

    Anna, That you let us all walk this out with you is incredible. Thank you. Evelyn Rose is the first thing on my lips in the morning, "Good Morning Little Baby Girl"...and I lift her up in joy to the one who is her creator.We all have your back and your hearts.
    Love you.
    Anita Davis

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  3. UnknownApril 7, 2011 at 8:13 AM

    Thank you for sharing Anna. We are continuing to pray for your family and Evelyn. We love you guys and we are here to support you!

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  4. UnknownApril 7, 2011 at 8:15 AM

    This is actually Bethany. :) I guess I am signed in under Will's account, but he has been praying for you too.

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  5. KristyApril 7, 2011 at 10:27 AM

    continuing prayer for you all! love you! Kristy

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  6. AnonymousApril 7, 2011 at 12:59 PM

    Thank you for allowing me to take this journey with you. I am honored to be able to lift your family up to our Lord and ask Him for a miracle, if it is within His will. I am thankful for you and the blessing that you have been in Caitlin's life and now mine.

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  7. CharityApril 15, 2011 at 7:17 PM

    Your children are so precious, all 3 of them. Thank you for being such a testimony and being faithful to the Lord in all you are going through.

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