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I've been working on allowing God to walk the dusty corners of my heart- places that have seemed foundational, and therefore needed to stay unchanged so that the structure of my heart wouldn't be threatened. As God gently earns more and more of my trust, I allow Him into those places because I trust that the changes He makes will not crush me. I trust that as he walks my dusty corners He will pull aside heavy drapes, flooding sunlight through windows I did not know were there. It becomes a beautiful experience, full of discovery and fresh freedom and light.



Somewhere along the line I disconnected between head and heart that God is very, very wealthy. I felt stuck in my humanity, limited by what I, as a human, am capable of. I could only earn as much money as the amount of work I did, I could only reach as many people as I "witnessed" to, I would only be good at something if I put in hard, hard practice hours. Self control became not a fruit of the SPIRIT, but a heavy load, something I must strain and strive to accomplish daily in all things. I carried my life on my shoulders.

God began to pull the curtains of this corner a few months ago, and little by little has been whispering to me to lean on Him, to let Him teach me to step out and soar.

This morning's whisper is fresh, and I thought I'd articulate it while it's fresh.

In Ephesians 3, Paul says,

"I pray that out of HIS GLORIOUS RICHES He may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with the saints to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge- that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
Now to Him who is able to do IMMEASURABLY MORE THAN ALL WE ASK OR IMAGINE, according to His power that is at work in us, to Him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations for ever and ever! Amen!"

I have access to it ALL, He says.
Ask, imagine, let Me in, He says.

I'm struck by how many times Paul mentions power. What if we stop hiding in our dusty corners- what if we let God walk freely in our hearts, throw open the drapes, and live a life of freedom, light, and spiritual power to His glory!

What a mighty, love-filled God we serve.

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